Bruva from another Mutha

Now when I need Beezy is when his ass wants to be in California, like calling him and staying on the phone for hours isn't running up my bill. Damn I miss that black kid<3

Anyway, things have been great. I am officially on the District Wide Student Government along with my dear Jenelia, kicking ass as usual. I'm transferring from music to drawing, I'll do a lot better there since I'm always drawing. I found this really awesome college that caught my attention, but I'm going to keep my options open. I haven't had one of "Those days" in a while, so I've been doing well. Except that I have the flu, not THEE flu but the flu. This is my second day out of school but I'll be good by tomorrow. I'll be super mad if I can't make it to my retreat on friday, I'm really excited for that.


Well, bye

Sending this one all the way to Cali.

My heart just can't seem to make up it's mind. I love you but I want to hate you. I need you but I also need you gone. My heart is telling me not to make any hasty decisions that I might regret, but maybe that is what I need. Maybe I need to eliminate what is getting in my way of living how I want to. I know what is best for me and then I don't. I just need to focus on me, on what makes me happy and who makes me happy. Maybe I need to discover some new interest to make up for what's missing. Maybe I don't want to hate you after all, maybe I don't need you gone, maybe I just need you to be consistent with your actions, because your words don't count for anything.
Maybe you think you know who I may or may not be talking about. Maybe I'm speaking about myself and maybe just maybe if you feel that this has anything to do with you, you will find it in your heart to let me live.


P.S-I'm in the process of erasing those thoughts that I try to tuck in the back of my head and replacing them with better ones. Likkkkkkke, I cut my hair, school is going great, started playing the sax, joined some clubs, and maybe meeting new people is not sooo bad.