Internet is back on !

I really love my job, it's awesome.
My strongest suit would be having the ability to take control, being creative, enthusiam, and people can depend on me to get the job done.
I'm still having trouble dealing with difficult kids and other co-workers, but I'm on it ;)
Well, I haven't had much time for anything at all. I work from 8:30-5:30/6 every day, five days a week so you can guess I'm always tired.
I owe like a whole summer to Jenelia. I've canceled on her a million times because I always feel like shit, especially on the weekends because all I want to do is sleep and I've left her bored with nothing to do.
Diana on the other hand, I have no clue what she's been up to, which is kind of sad considering Jenelia, Diana, and I were inseperable. Still are. Just not lately.
But I miss them a lot and how things used to be. It's complicated.
My phone broke, finally. I dropped it and now it doesn't slide up all the way and there's some peice sticking out that never did so I'm kind of scared. I love my phone, and I hope I won't have to go back using the regular keyboard.

Ummmmmm what else?
My first paycheck I blew it on shit, I gave my dad forty, bought a couple of stuff, bought my cousin food and a sweater, got jenelia a cute ass gift, and got Brian (beezy) a heroes poster.
I'm getting my next paycheck this friday and I'm saving it 'cept the 75$ that is for drivers ed. I'll save it for back to school supplies and clothes.

I'm going to bed, got to be well rested for tomorrow. And If I'm not feelinf too tired I'll try to make things up to Jenelia and Ryan.

Rammmm-Buh-Lannnng

I feel horrible right now.
I stayed home from work because of this stomach ache I have.
I feel nausus, hot, and a little dizzy at the moment.
I hope I'll feel better by tomorrow.
Today prettty much sucked. Since school ended I can't find a book worth reading and it sucks.
I got stuck watching television because I couldn't stand being in bed anymore and web surfing just doesn't appeal to me as much as it used to.

I love blogging, it gives me a sense a security and reassurance that I won't lose my damned mind from not opening up because I can spill everything here. But I also hate it because I feel fake.
I say what ever is on my mind but I'm not brave enough to actually go out and act on it.
Well in some cases like the one I am about to write about.
I'm going to pretend like I am talkin to the person that I want to say this to.

Let me make one thing clear sweetie. Don't you ever speak to me as if I am incapable of fulfilling my job.
I know my place and my place is to complete what I have started and that is this job.
I was hired obviously because I have potential, I pick up your slack and you take credit for it, no thank you's or any sign of recognition for my job well done.
You make me feel as if I am imcompetent and unable to reach your level when in reality you depend on me.
I have nothing but respect for you and not because you are older but because I would like to earn your respect just like you have earned mine.
But now you are starting to piss me off because you talk to me as if I was a little kid. Yes, I am much younger then you are but I am much more mature on so many different levels. Your ego is too big for more than one leader and if that is how you want to play then I guess we're going to have to battle this one out because I won't ever live in the shadow of someone else. Especially someone not much greater then me.
AMEN!
Seee, I wish it was that easy.

Oh, this is my current my away:
What is it with guys talking in metaphors? Metaphors that aren't really metaphors because they don't even compare two unlikely objects without using the words "like" or "as". You're a lot more attractive when you don't open your mouth =]

Smh, This was inspired by a very sweet but idiotic male. Just don't try so harddddd.

And I Wonderrrrrr, Who's Loving You =']

No one can deny it. Michael Jackson was a musical genius and that is hard to compete with.


Fourth of July was pretty decent. I went to Burlengame Park/Beach W.E w. my family and Didi.
It was fun 'til Diana did the most idiotic thing ever and it became hillarious.
So, w'ere laying on a rock (didi and I) looking up at the clouds when my cousin Danny discovers a dead fish (that he friggin' put in my face -__-). I motioned for him to throw it Diana, if you know Diana you would know that she is scared of everything. (regaurdless of her buffness). He throws the fish at her and like the idiot that she is she jerked (not the dance move) forward so hard that she slid down the rock into a bush of vines and thorns and almost went plummeting into the deep end of the lake. I have never laughed so hard in my life.
She was pretty cut up and while I was busy peeing my self, Danny and everyone else got soooo serious and went to rescue her from the tangle mess of thorns.
Blah blah, I had to clean her cuts and hold her hand the whole time (she's seventeen BTW).

After that we had more fun and finally packed up and went home around 7:30 (aoowwww Lmao)
We went to Pork's "dique cookout", and I never been surrounded by so much immaturity (well one person actually). We left after that and went to Dann'y house, walked to see "fireworks" when we really were going to a party that was shut down and the streets were full of little kids that were still in middle schoool.
Went back to Danny's house then went home and I knocked out.

Friday was the best though. Jenelia called me around 11:00 am to tell me to get ready and head to her house because she made me breakfast. She's the best.
I stayed there a while w. Tika and her then went back home then back to her house and had the best time of my life .
We watched Michael Jackson's Dangerous tour on DVD and had an awesome time w. her and her family.
Here's some pictures :)
Didi and I


This is what I would look like with out any eyebrows


One of Diana's many cuts



yea, i thought this entry was going to be more exciting, I guess not.
good night.